Recently, I've been diagnosed with Bi-Polar disorder (sometimes called Manic/Depressive Disorder).  It explains a lot about my early adulthood.  Bipolar has several different types.  Mine is called "rapid-cycling" meaning I can change moods very quickly (sometimes in the course of the day).  These mood swings are very drastic and confusing.

At first I was very embarrassed, but I've grown to appreciate this as a liveable health problem (as one would view diabetes or hypertension).

There are two POLES a persons mood can swing violently into.  One is Depression.  This is marked by worry, oversleeping, and sometimes severe depression.  I become very pensive, embarrass easily, shy, fearful and sad.

The other pole is Mania.  This is marked by hyperactivity, excessive behaviors (worry, spending, sex) with little regard of the consequences.  I become creative, overtly sexual, and easily angered and irritable.

Rarely do I find myself at peace.  I generally feel rather discombobulated and fractured.  Although mental illness is no joking matter, I find humor is the best medicine (besides the Lithium - ha ha) and I believe others should feel free to ask questions and join in the fun with me.  I keep a sense of humor, stay hopeful and try to stay positive about the things to come.